Travels

Today at 6:30 am my family and I woke up, packed our suitcases and began the six/seven hour journey to see family on boxing day. We are currently still on the road, we stopped for food about an hour ago. We still have about 2 hours to go. I cant wait to see my family! Hope everyone had a great Christmas :)

Christmas

Christmas as a child was all about the presents, but now as an adult I look forward to spending time with my family. For the last few years, we have taken a number out of a hat and starting from 1 we pick presents and then trade with someone if we dont like what we got, you cant trade if your number has already been. This year was alot less trading but still an awesome traditional game for the day. We also looked at some old photos of the family,  photos of me as a toddler, mum and dads wedding, and photos of my great uncle and a print of my great great grandfather.  It was an awesome day, filled with love, laughter, food and company

Is He the One for Me?

Why can't I be like the girls from Sex & the City?  As soon as a guy does something wrong or shows those red flags they dump him, whereas I spend months, up to a year with the wrong guy. I've had the user, controller, shy guy, etc.  I don't see the red flags until I've been dumped or until I've fallen out of love after all the time I've spent trying to make things work.

Friends

There's always going be some form of drama in your life. Three weeks ago when I broke up with my ex, he told me to delete his friends off Facebook as he wanted them to have nothing to do with me. I told a few of them what he said and they said it was rude of him to ask that as they considered me more of a friend than him. My point is, dont give up on your friends, they may surprise you when you lwast expect it.

Hashimoto's disease

Today i went back to the doctors and as i expected, I had an auto immune disease known as Hashimoto's disease. Hashimoto's disease is a common cause of hypothyroidism. (underactive thyroid) Immune system cells attack the thyroid gland, causing inflammation. This reduces the thyroid's ability to make hormones. The condition is also called Hashimoto's thyroiditis, chronic lymphocytic thyroiditis or autoimmune thyroiditis. I have had my medication upped to two tablets a day instead of one, as well as bloodtests in six weeks followed by a doctors appointment.

The one?

I always question if there is really someone out there, for me. Does the one really exist? Or am I just running around in circles? I want to find the one and get married, have children and live happily ever after. But is this my destiny?

Family

Guys and friends come and go, but family is forever, at least in my case. I dont know what i would do without them, I have had so many terrible things go wrong and they have always been there to support, guide and help me.

Controlling relationships

In my experience,  relationships are difficult and painful. In the past week I have been trying to get out of a controlling relationship,  He treated me and my friends like crap and he said that we were stupid and he was the smart one. He also made rude jokes about my family and friends. He was an asshole and he was lazy. But it wasn't long until I got sick of it,  and realized I no longer loved him. I tried to break it off, it was exhausting,  He asked for another chance over and over again.  He said that he loved me and that he could change, he also said that he wasted time and money on me. I asked friends for advice and the night before last I did my very best to end it completely.  He lost control and told me he was going to kill himself. I freaked out and called the only people that I knew could help me,  my parents. Now I'm safe staying at my parents house for a bit. I dont feel miserable like I did living with him, I'm with people who love and care about me

Jobs

I havent had a job for two months, I have applied for quite a few jobs and had a job trial but no luck so far. It hurts to be broke, All the bills are paid but not much left over for food and fuel, If money wasn't scarce I would worry too much about finding one right now when I'm still unwell. I owe so many people money because of having trouble making ends meet even when I had a job, It's frustrating because I want to be able to pay people back but I can't.

Heartbreak

If you're in a relationship or seeing someone, and for some odd reason you realise you no longer love them, would you tell them? And if they ask for another chance, would you give that to them, or would you feel it's unfair because you no longer love them? I've always been told to break up with someone face to face, because it makes things easier, but is it really any different to doing it over the phone, text or social network? The emotional damage is still there no matter how you do it, but it always seem rather rude to not do it in person. I've only broken up with someone once, It was horrible, I felt the same as I did when someone broke my heart. I was exhausted, frustrated, hurt, angry, and wanted to spend the entire day in bed. I guess it all depends on the reaction.

Book Writing

I have started writing a book about my experiences with my Thyroid Disease on Wattpad. check it out at http://www.wattpad.com/31079312-thyroid-disease

Relationships

Relationships for me have always been complicated, but i have always been in love, So I have loved and been loved or I don't really know what love is I know that it sounds silly but I don't think you can only ever love one person. But I believe I loved each and every single person I have been with. I have been broken hearted and I have broken hearts but I'm not going to stop looking for that special someone. I have lost so many loves, even ending badly, but I'm just going have fun while I'm single, Like my 2-5 year plan of going to Europe <3 When you're in a relationship, It's not just about you, whereas if you're single you can do whatever you want and go wherever you want without worrying about your boyfriend. I have been cheated on, used, controlled, and I'm still searching, so never give up hope that somewhere out there, there is someone for you

Thyroid

I had breakfast at 4am this morning before i went to sleep, I didn't choose to stay up, It was more of I-can't-sleep-thing. The thing is, lately I haven't been doing well, sleep wise or healthwise. I was recently diagnosed with a thyroid problem, I'm still waiting on results so I'm not too sure what I've got. For the past few weeks, life has been painful and exhausting, I have been on medication for only three days, I was told it would get worse, i didn't believe them until now, i ended up with carpal tunnel syndrome and dizziness and the leg cramps got worse. I also have to wait to find out if i need all or part of my thyroid removed. See you all tomorrow :)

My New Blog

I guess you could say that I've been inspired to write this blog, probably because of watching too many episodes of The Carrie DIaries (which is AMAZING! gotta love Annasophia Rob <3) or because i always have so much on my mind and i want to write about it but here it is, my new blog and you, reading this, whoever you are, hope you enjoy. In the past few weeks I've been a little obsessed with Europe and all things to do with Swede and travelling, I'm planning on a big trip there in a few years, If i can manage to get a new job. I plan to go to England, Wales, Scotland, Ireland, France, italy, Norway and Sweden. Definitely in that order. I am also planning to learn the Swedish language, because it sounds so sexy and sophisticated and I've been reading up on Sweden and it sounds like a beautful place to live in or visit. And there you have it, my first post. See you all tomorrow